“I regret giving birth to you guys” – 80-year-old mother left a letter before she died

The last letter of a Chinese mother’s life was published on People’s Daily, making many people cry.

Today, June 6, I have passed the age of 80, that is to say, I have lived for 80 years.

In such a long time, I have given birth to 4 children, and raised 8 more grandchildren. So, I’m old enough to understand many things.

A few years ago, after your father passed away, I clearly felt that you were impatient with me. I really hope that my son can take me home, I want to live with them, and I can do whatever I want.

After 2 months, my heart froze, I know, no one will take me home. But if I really cared, everyone could come cook for me every night, how much less lonely I would be. Really, living most of human life, what is the most afraid? It could just be loneliness.

The brothers spent exactly one year and nine months taking care of their mother, about 630 days. As a mother, I am grateful to you for that noble act.

After that, their faces became more and more ugly. The brothers came without a greeting, and left without a word. It seemed that the brothers were entering a hotel, passing an old lady who did not have any familiarity in her eyes.

I don’t want to offend any of you, even though I didn’t eat a single meal from you, wear your clothes, or even spend a dime from you. But you make me feel that your visit to me is a great debt to you.

Even when I became confused, the brothers left quietly every night, no one came back, and gave me a terrible loneliness.

It’s okay, after all, after your father passed away, you came with me for a year and nine months. I am grateful for this. For the rest of my life, I will go alone.

I have struggled in loneliness for more than two years. Celebrating my 80th birthday, I was greeted by my brothers with “Long live a hundred years!”, I laughed and thought that living a hundred years was useless.

Lately, my heart has been getting more and more uncomfortable. I didn’t say that, and I don’t know what to say. I hope that illness will take me away soon. A few days ago, I dreamed about your father. He smiled and looked at me and said, “come with me, you will never be alone again”.

I am grateful for his love in this life, and I am grateful for your 630 days of companionship.

I had a heart attack. I understood that day was coming, so I wrote this letter.

My hair is all gray, I swear to my white hair, I really appreciate what you guys do. But apart from this sentence, I have one more thing to say: I regret giving birth to you guys, if there is an afterlife, I don’t want to see you guys anymore.

But I still hope that all 4 of them will be happy in the years to come, will not be abandoned by their 8 children.

After this letter, I want to stop all…”

After a few days, the woman lay peacefully in bed with her eyes closed, holding in her hand the only picture of herself and her husband.